I was reminded of this at therapy today. How often do we take our eyes off God when he is doing the impossible in our lives?
This must have been what Peter was thinking when he stepped out of the boat into the water to get to Jesus. The solid footing underneath him gone with only the waves in front of him. Jesus says walk on the water, to where I’m taking you. I can do the impossible. Peter asked him for the impossible and he was giving it to him, but that requires faith. In the midst of all this Peter sees the wind and waves all around him and that had to be completely frightening. It was at that very moment though when he began to sink.
Matthew 14:30-31 ~ But when he looked around at the high waves, he was terrified and began to sink. “Save me, Lord!” he shouted. Instantly Jesus reached out his hand and grabbed him. “You don’t have much faith,” Jesus said. “Why did you doubt me?” And when they climbed back into the boat, the wind stopped.
There are two stark descriptors happening to Peter in this passage. Fear and Faith and it vividly shows us he could not have both. In fear we sink, we can’t reach our potential. And then it is in that sinking when we lose faith. But that does not mean the impossible is/was not attainable, it is our fear holding it back.
Fortunately for Peter the shear panic of literally sinking drove him back to faith and Jesus was there and DID the impossible.
This is kind of what soul awakening has felt like for me. When my eyes are fixed on faith I feel strong and I feel above the waves. But the wind is still there and it is super easy to give in to that fear.
Maybe that is why I keep procrastinating actually going to get my faith tattoo. For me getting this tattoo symbolizes an outward visual reminder of what faith can do and the growth that comes in facing fear. Yet I’m terrified of actually being able to do it so I’ve done nothing about it.
The word resistance is what I said during EMDR today.
Okay, I get it Jesus. Fear is resistance against the impossible. But the impossible can not be obtained until we get rid of the fear. We can not have both and blame you for our sinking. You are there instantly when we let go of fear.
Philippians 4:13 (NIV) I can do all this through him who gives me strength.
I’m super tired from EMDR today, as always. Retail therapy was in order for sure because that is what hot messes do when we are tired and sick of winter. At least this hot mess anyway. Somehow I managed to make it through the Christmas eating fest unscathed. The plus side of PTSD loves, it keeps us small. Anyway, I need to try yoga so I was on a mission to get in the yoga kind of mind. So I’m in Victoria’s Secret thinking my usual, these lovelies are non existent after nursing three kids but we are here to get our yoga on so fine, measure me up if you must. Whoa, where did 32D come from! Say WHAT?
Small with big potential apparently came out of no where today. And that is exactly what came out of my mouth. LOL! There we go, I.M.Possible miracles of the day thanks to EMDR, yoga and exercise.
We might feel small but remember small is big potential with Jesus, anything is I.M.Possible.
Stay tuned on the tattoo peeps, the design is awesome. Faith, it’s a journey. ❤️
Loved By Grace,