I had my own notion of grief.  I thought it was the sad time that followed the death of someone or something you love.  And you had to push through it to get to the other side. But I’m learning there is no other side, there are no sides.  There is no pushing through but rather there is absorption.  Adjustment, acceptance.  And grief is not something you complete, but rather, you endure.  Grief is not a task to finish and move on, but an element of yourself.  An alteration of your being.  A new way of seeing, a new definition of self. ~Gwen Flowers

Luke 19:41-42 (NIV) “As he approached Jerusalem and saw the city, he wept over it and said, ‘If you, even you, had only known this day what would bring you peace–but now it is hidden from your eyes.'”

Wept… to express uncontrollable grief.  To cry out in pain or anguish.  Jesus grieved over not being able to give his enemies peace.  But you see, they aren’t really enemies.  We are our own worst enemy.  He loves us and He wants all of us to have peace.  He says, “if you had only known what would bring you peace.”  Peace…the internal stability that comes from steadfast trust in God.  And when the struggles come which they most certainly will, it is relief and the calm in our heart that comes from resting in Him.  Life is not without struggles or pain, that was never promised.

Peace is a person and His name is Jesus.  We can all be our own worst enemies without Him.  That is grief.

So in the midst of the beautiful hot messes, we can easily find ourselves sitting in grief and end up liking it there.  Be careful who you blame the grief and disappointments to in life because people are going to disappoint and let each other down.  And believe it or not that person could be our own self.  We will let our own selves down. But don’t make God human and miss the peace.

God is for Us, God is not against Us.

Somewhere along the way we can decide to walk by Faith even if He is not answering. Even if He seems absent. In spite of our prayers, in spite of the disappointments of life we can simply be Still and wait to see what God will do.  Wishing to find joy is not enough to overcome the beautiful hot mess.  Be willing to do what it takes to get it.

Thy Will Be Done means He will never Fail to find us joy.  But we have to let go.

Hillary Scott – Thy Will

Loved By Grace,